It's in human's nature to find another entity to hold accountable for one's misfortunes. And tonight I almost blamed Him.

Mahirap maging mabait, nasusubukan ka. Minutes before I write this, it came to a point when my thoughts wondered if religion, eternal life, and being saved are but spiritual fairy tales that some of our underblessed ancestors desperately came up with to justify this unfair mess that is life.

And then my eyes were closed and for the rarest of times, I genuinely felt the need to pray. And then all is well.